Adios 2009! Hola 2010!

Barely an hour left in 2009! :D Time has gone so fast. Indeed I can say that I have the best year even there are misfortunes that came along the way. I may not have started 2009 with a great move but for sure I'm going to end it with a grace. Graduating not included in the Top Ten was a hard thing for me to accept but as days passed, I have learned to realize that honors is a bonus, however not a basis for someone's true achievements. After well-spent years in Paranaque National High School-DOST, my plans for college throttled my mind. Choosing between Business Management and Chemistry--my chosen field that made everybody's eyebrows rise with suspicions-- was a hard thing to do, since both fields are of my interests. But after careful investigation of my interests as well as my capabilities, I have chosen, of course, Chemistry. (The start of classes was postponed due to A(H1N1) Virus, so I had the chance to have my flu vaccine to avoid the said disease.) Armed with determination and dedication, I stepped my feet in the Royal and Pontifical University, University of Sto. Tomas. I even said that: Baka maging madre ako dito, kasi banal! :))) (Hindi rin pala! XD) A good way to start my first year in college is to have familiar faces with me (kahit na nakakasawa na!). Glad I have Ezra and Dave by my side coz living my freshie's life is quite an ease for me. Another way was to become the class president of 1Chem. Hard it may be, I'm glad I'm surviving the stressful life of a president, and a Chem student. I enjoy every moment I have with my new found friends and my old buddies. I'm quite surprised that I am able to juggle my time between my two sets of friends as well as balance my academic life with my extra-curriculars (knowing what had happened in my senior life in HS). I have survived the wrath of the typhoons Ondoy (this one is memorable coz... XD), Pepeng, Ramil, Santi and Tino but unluckily I was not able to surpass the fury of love (hahaha! kidd!). I'm lucky that I have outlived 1st sem -- regular student ako! Yey! XD These things would not be possible if people around me are not there to love and support me all throughout. So let me thank these people. FAMILY -- alam nyo n yan! XD High School Friends -- POORWAN and DOST people. I would not be me if you guys have not been there. You have molded me into a unique person. You have given me a one-of-a-kind personality. You made me laugh, smile, cry, angry, & happy. Guys you are simply the best! I love you with all my heart. HINDI KO MALILIMUTAN ANG MGA KALOKOHAN NATIN! :))) AYYY! ALAM NA! XD Sa mga anak-anakan ko, Moiyk, Jem, and (kahit nd naman tlga, peo cge isama na =]]]) Marky; to EIGHTERS; Lorraine, Jandra, Kim Kenneth, Jep, Jik, Miki, Prince, Jam; to my sister's classmates: Rajelle, Ruby, CJ, Caleb; to the Ate Beka's Batch: Ate Beka, Ate Thea, Ate Myka, Ate Jen, Ate Ekhai, Kuya Eugene, Kuya Adrian, Kuya Jervis, Kuya Kris, Ate DJ; to Kuya Ivan's Batch: Kuya Ivan, Ate Maiko, Ate Ara, Ate Irish, Ate Ingrid, Ate Mara, Ate Camille; to the lower batch. THANK YOU! You made my high school life sooo memorable! =] PNHS FRIENDS -- SOF people, and the rest. Orayt! My DOSTinian life would not be complete kung walang SOF (mortal na kalaban ng TSOD! hahaha! XD) You have given spices (and challenge) to every competition and contest that we had. Hahaha! To the people who became my friends, SEC people, especially Martha, Ilonah, Jinky, Jeca, Ayban, Jen-- thank you so much! XD To Florenz, Crizch, Jenny, Mikee, Phia, and the rest -- every moment with you is treasured. Thanks for being a part of my high school life. SCIENCE CLUB (YES-O) Sir ER, I am very thankful for supervising me in this field. You are indeed a big help in my leadership career. To Camille, Gwen Dave, Joemar, Miguel, Rod, Janine, Cherry: your support is very much appreciated. A heap of thanks for you guys. :) TO MY MENTORS Mrs. Rumbaoa, Mrs. Abisado-Tilus, Ms. Montiel, Mrs. Sasis, Sir Espi, Sir Adducul, Mrs. Navia-Ibieta, Ms. Romakin, Ms. Mascarinas: Thank you for taking me under your wings. I am grateful for being your student. The lessons you have taught me are of great use. Thank you so much! Mrs. Apolonia F. Soriano, Mam Apol, thank you po to all the things you have taught us. They go beyond the four corners of the classroom. Very helpful indeed, and I am proud that I am a SPARK STAFFER. Love you Ma'am. :D "I hate latecomers." ; "Liars go to bed." :) Mrs. Evelyn G. Avendano, Mam Veng, super thank you po. You know very well that you play a big part in my student's life. Aware na po kayo eh kaya no need to elaborate. :D 1CHEM I am VERY HAPPY that I am part of this class. I love you guys! Super grateful ako dahil 1CHEM AKO. I enjoy every moment I have with you. Sana we graduate on time diba? Tska kung gaano tayo karami noon start, sana ganoon din sa huli. More bonding moments with you guys and stronger friendship! Kudos! MY BEST FRIENDS AND CLOSE FRIENDS Judy, Jhamela, Michelle, Ron, Izza, Kresta, Nico, Ken, Dhe, Zea, Wilmer, Benin, Lorraine, Peter, Ate Kiersten, Ate Jeth, Ate Danica, Kuya Karl, Ate Ja, Ate Mea, Ate CJ, Kuya Jake, Kuya Judiel, Kuya Mark, Ate Grace, Ate Shiz: GUYS! YOU ROCK MY WORLD! I LOVE YOU SOOOO MUCH! Words are not enough to thank you for teverything you have done to me. You made my life easier and more enjoyable. So thanks a lot!=) EARTH-UST FAMILY Ate Cha, Ate Isay, Ate Gela, Ate Dana, Ate Dana (HRM), Kuya Tupe, Kuya Raf, Kuya Gian, Boss Bene, and the rest. Guys salamat sa lahat! Mahal ko kayo! More akyat! :D TO MY PROFESSORS Dr. Bernard John V. Tongol -- Wew! (You may not be active in your social network accts... Teka pinagpapawisan ako! HAHAHA!) ="> Thank you for the inspiration you have given me. Egao o misete =] Ms. Felicidad Christina R. Ramirez -- Ma'am thank you po sa lahat. Alam nyo na po un ;) Sa support kay..., sa patience, sa understanding, sa kulitan :) We love you Ma'am! Mrs. Castro, Mrs. Ward, Ma'am Karen--thanks po! Haha! Sa mga pang-aasar haha XD

Dean Sison, Ma'am DR, Ma'am Martin, Sir Hendrik, Dr. Maranan, Sir Burns, Sir Willard, and the rest -- thank you so much! =]

Bishou!

ENGLISH TRANSLATION:

NO MORE CRY! NO MORE CRY!

NO MORE CRY! NO MORE CRY!

To tomorrow!

NO MORE CRY!

To tomorrow!

NO MORE CRY!

Someone this precious to me,

Even though they are right next to me,

They are crying and I don't realize it.

Scribbled on the top of my desk,

A glimpse of my glimmering dream,

I lock it up inside my heart.

Those Lonely Days, Let's not repeat them anymore.

Let's change them into the color of the sky.

Yeah!

I was used to running away;

Just thought I was by myself.

I'm saying goodbye to those yesterdays!

*I'm gonna run!

No More Cry! No More Cry!

I'm going to hold on to your hand.

To Tomorrow!

No More Cry! No More Cry!

I don't want to shed tears of sorrow but of joy

That day, you showed me kindness;

I responded with harshness.

I just brushed off your tiny hand.

With my shoelaces untied like this, I can't run.

So let's take a deep breath of that sky.

Yeah!

I have forgotten what is precious.

I've turned my eyes away from the future.

I'm saying goodbye to those yesterdays!

I'm gonna run!

No More Cry! No More Cry!

You were always there for me,

With a smile.

No More Cry! No More Cry!

No matter how many times it takes, I will start over again.

Talk to me about you, baby.

I'm even begging you like this.

Forever, stay with me for loving you, baby.

Since you are alone, you cannot go forward. No one could!

I want to warm your frozen fingers with my touch.

Everything I see reflected in my eyes right now, I want to embrace it.

*REPEAT

No More Cry! No More Cry!

I don't want to shed tears of sorrow but of joy

Recipe for a Happy Life! :)

Ingredients:

• 5 cups of love
• 1 family
• 10 tbsp of friends
• 3 tbsp of fellow people
• 5 glasses of care
• 5 glasses of understanding
• 5 glasses of patience
• 3 tsp of peace
• Fear of God (garnish)
• Contentment (seasoning)
• Concern, diced
• Smile (toppings)
• Appreciation and recognition
• Gratitude

Procedures:

1. Prepare your Happy Life Mixture
2. Mix 5 cups of love with family. Set aside with gratitude.
3. Then add 10 tbsp of friends. Stir thoroughly with appreciation and recognition.
4. Blend the first mixture with 5 glasses of each care, understanding, and patience.
5. Season the mixture with contentment.
6. Then sprinkle smile on the mixture.
7. Add 3 tbsp of fellow people with concern. Set aside, this will be your side dish.
8. Garnish the food with fear of God. Serve it with pure intentions and a loving heart.

There you have it! You’re very own Happy Life Recipe! :)

Bon appetit!

The Cripple Who is Whole

What's up? Blogging again late at night eh?

Just want to pour out some thoughts. Thoughts that somehow will help me clarify things.

After I read her profile (don't ask whose) in their yearbook, I was amazed at how great she was as a student, and how talented she is. I may not know her personally, but after some time of disliking her (for a certain issue), I became to understand that my impression was wrong. Indeed I am lucky to have known her even just for a short span. She is a good person, and an interesting one. I'm hoping that someday I would have the chance to meet her.

But that's not the point of this blog. It's just a part of it.

I stumbled across the words talent and skill. The words are familiar, but to me, they are like a stranger who I have never met. The words are near, but to me, they are like the stars-- so hard to reach.

In my seventeen years of existence, I have never treated a certain talent as my real talent. For all I know, I have none. I always hear these replies: "Kung bobo ka, anu pa ako?"; "Kaya mo yan! Kaw pa!" and the like whenever I say that I'm not good in anything. It is lucid that people think that I am capable of doing something but actually I can not. I had never done anything that I would consider I have used the extent of my capabilities. It is always partial. In their point of view it is good (partially positive) and in my blurring eyes, it is otherwise (partially negative), and sometimes vice versa. I know I have not yet explored every avenue of my life but I think it's kinda late to know what field I really excel at. Honing will take time. Using it will take another.

How I wish as early as of now I would be able to know what I am really capable. I don't want to end the day fooling myself that I can do something. I don't want to believe all my life that through dedication and determination everything that you wanted to happen (only plausible) will happen. I don't want to pretend that I have strengths when in fact all I have are weaknesses-- proof that I am a rusting iron. I don't want my already dull mind to be oxidized nor neutralized. I just want my knowledge to be reduced so I will be able to use it for the betterment of the society.

"If I could be like that, I would give anything just to live one day in those shoes..."