Never deny your feelings

"How will you know if someone loves you if you don’t tell them that you love them too?"

August 2, 2010

We were dismissed earlier in our 7pm class. It was just 5.30 and I still had a meeting to attend to at 7pm. To kill the time, I asked him if he could accompany me till 7pm. He said yes. So we went to car park and bought Japanese Milk Tea. We then walked towards Espana and back to Main building passing through the Lover's Lane.

We stayed in the second floor of the Main building. We're just talking. Curious about the girl he has a crush on, I asked him about her. What I only knew is the girl has a long hair, wears contact lenses, and is either from Chem or Bio courses, and I said these to him. He said that he's just making those descriptions and he described them to me. Masayang kasama. Sweet. Mabait. These were among the characteristics the girl he likes possesses. I asked him what course the girl is enrolled in, know what he said? Chem. He added, "At katabi ko siya ngayon." Know what I did? I took a seat apart from him, and jokingly said, "Wala ka namang katabi,eh. Hahaha!"

It took me sometime to realize that he is pertaining to me. Yes, it's me. He likes me. For the first time in my entire life, a guy voiced out what he feels in front of me. At that time, I knew already that I like him but never did I imagine that this would happen. I know we held each other's hand at that time. It was a bizarre feeling. So surreal.

After the meeting, we went home together. On our way out, we were holding each other's hand. He accompanied me up to the FX terminal in Lawton, and when I was about to get in, he kissed me on the cheek.

I texted him and it goes like this:

"Ingats ka po sa pag-uwi. I'm willing to take the risk just to be with you."

His texts were:

"Anyway, I will face a lot of risks (as well). I would rather hold your hand and face it together with you, than without you."

"...but it would be difficult for me to be against myself. Sittie, what would you like us to do?"

And you know what? We are happy. We are happy together. We are glad and thankful that we admitted what we really feel. You see, it takes a lot of strength and courage to admit what we really feel but it's worth it. It can be risky but when we look back, we just say, "I'm glad we take the risks. I am happy that you are mine and I am yours."

Ciao!