Hello(2011)Goodbye(2010)

Since I turned 18 this 2010, let me be brief in thanking people in my life. ;)

Ang aking Labingwalong Puntos :D :D

Family (Mama, Papa, Mimi, Hasmin, & Hannah) -- what can I say? You're very supportive and loving and caring. Thank you for everything. As for my shortcomings, I can not promise that they will be gone but I'll try my best to minimize them. I love you always. :)

Relatives (Manalo Family & Tita Achie; de Sahagun & Salik clans) -- Thank you for the support and love. I hope that we'll see each other again. *To Tita Achie, thank you for everything. The holiday became merrier because of you. We love you so much.

HS Barkada (Judy,King,Rhoy,Caren, Louise, Bryan) -- Friends! I love you. To more than 5 years of frienship, *cheers* I'm looking forward to stronger and lifetime friendship. Thank you thank you for everything. Alam niyo na iyon. Sa patience, sa love, sa care, sa support, sa kwentuhan. You guys rock! Sorry for my shortcomings. Love you guys! :D

Poorwan and DOST friends-- mga bakla! Reunion ngaaaa! Hahaha! Miss ko na kayo! Maraming salamat sa bonding moments natin kahit we're in different schools na. Thank you sa pag-invite sa special days niyo. Salamat sa friendship. I love you guys. :D :D

2Chem -- My family in college. Guys, thank you for everything. Sorry for my shortcomings. I didn't mean to offend or hurt you in any way. That was not my intention. And I miss you. Gagraduate tayo nang sabay-sabay. Just keep up the faith and trust in Him. :)

College Bestfriends (Kresta, Karissa, Izza, Ate Jeth, Ate Kiersten, Ate Elanie, Kuya Arvic, Itay Tupe) -- guys! Mabuhay! You help me in surpassing my college life! I super love you. All I can say is thank you for everything - support, pieces of advice, love, care... Sorry for my mistakes that might have hurt or offend you in one way or another.

ChemSoc -- Guys, thank you for trusting me in leading the Chem people. As our term comes to an end, I hope that we embarked good impressions on our fellow Chem students.

EARTH-UST Family -- Padayon! Tambay naaaa! Guys, you're wonderful! Thank you for the fun, laughter, mind games, and the kwentos! I miss you! Babawi ako this year. Promise. *Aattend ako ng year-end party. That's a PROMISE. :D :D

Becarios & Escolario Adelantador --Wow! I never thought that I will be one of the scholars. It's a dream come true. Thank you thank you for the wisdom and knowledge that you're sharing with us in order to maintain our scholarship. To my Esco family, I am really thankful that I am part of it. It's my way of expressing myself and I'm lucky enough to have 2 of my poems published. It's really an honor and privilege to be a part of the BeST and Esco.

Rebisco FATE -- THANK YOU. Your help in my studies is a BLESSING. It's a wonderful and amazing gift not only to me but also to my family. I'll assure you that I'm going to do my best in order to prove that I am worthy to be a grantee of your scholarship.

Ma'am Veng -- Ma'am, what am I without your inspiration? Maybe I'm not in the field of Chemistry. It was my choice to follow your path. As the days drag along, you strengthen it with the dedication and inspiration I have seen in you. I hope that with my choice I can make you proud. Someday... :)

Ma'am Jolleen -- Nay! Thank you. For everything. You know these already. I'm going to keep my promise no matter how hard it is. But one day when the time is right , I will tell you the details. I love you, Nay! :)

College Mentors -- From my majors to the minors... Thank you for imparting knowledge and sharing your experiences with us. I know we can use them in future as we travel the roads we have chosen. Thank you Sirs and Ma'ams.

ACB People -- Thank you for honing me to become a good leader. Your tips and pieces of advice are very much appreciated. *cheers*

People who made me smile (College buddies, Tumblr friends, etc) -- thank you. For the laughter, comfort... You added colors to my life. Please continue sharing and spreading happiness. :)

People who've hurt me -- I have forgiven you. Thank you because you helped me to bring out more strength and patience in me. People I have hurt -- I humbly ask for your forgiveness. May this year helped us to renew and strengthen the loose ends of our friendship/relationship.

Kyle -- I don't know what God was thinking when He created you. I wonder if He knew everything I would need because He made all my dreams come true. When God made you, He must have been thinking about me. And boom! You set it again, my heart's in motion. Kyle, thank you. Thank you for loving me. Thank you entrusting me your heart and I assure that I will take good care of it & treasure it forever. Thank you for being my other half. I know you know how much I love you. Kahit paulit-ulit, I'll say it again -- I love you. I love you. I love you. :) Kyle, I'm sorry and I ask for your forgiveness for the mistakes I have committed. And I'll be careful now coz just like you, I'm afraid to lose you. I love you so much. *tears of happiness*

GOD -- God, You are so Good. You have given me blessings even though I think I don't deserve them. You have already forgiven me even before I ask for Your forgiveness. You have given me problems that made me stronger and wiser. You have given me happy moments so that I have something that can make me smile. You have given me everything that You think is better for me. I know You have not granted the wishes I asked You but I'm thankful that You didn't give them because Your plans are far greater than mine. I trust You and I may have... Errr... (Let's keep it a secret ;] ) You have given me a wonderful year. Thank You. I know this is not enough to thank You for everything. God, I'm also sorry for my shortcomings. Please help me to be transformed into a woman that will glorify You and serve You.

Let's get it on, 2011! I'm ready! :D :D

Christmas Buh-reak

So, what's up for Sitay? It's been a while since I've last poured out my thoughts here. A long time, I guess...

What keeps me busy this Christmas break is reading. A lot of readings. From about mass spectrometry to nuclear magnetic resonance to Joshua Harris' Boy Meets Girl. The break has allowed me to relax and feed my mind with new things aside from the chemical formula, chemical reactions, and whatever chemicals involved that I am breathing in before the Christmas break.

I started this entry with keeps me busy. The following paragraphs will describe further how I spend (wisely?) this wonderful vacation.

On the topic of mass spec and NMR...

I'm lucky to finish my spectral analysis before the Christmas break had started. However, I had to refine my explanation since my structure includes an aromatic ring which makes my 1H NMR reading a little bit complex. I'm quite confused with the signals shown in my spectrum so I had to do a mega research in order come up with the best explanation I can give. Fortunately, my ring is just monosubstituted which corresponds to a quintet. Yey! It's quite easier now! :D :D On the other hand, I had to explain well my mass spec. Why on earth, I find NMR easier than mass spec? Whatever (in Sir Padilla's tone :D)! I find NMR more interesting. Maybe someday, I will be knowledgeable like Dean Nonato, just a glance at someone's spectrum and proposed structure, she would know if that proposed structure is correct or not. Amazing, isn't it?

Kyle meets Sitay. I mean, Boy Meets Girl. ;)

The book is about relationship, a God-glorified relationship. My relationship with Kyle is going strong. We're going stronger every day. The book made me realize a lot of things - things that I should do to make our relationship better & stronger and things that I should not do in order not to destroy it. I have listed the To-Do's in my journal and I shall execute them as soon as we see each other again. Oooh, I miss him a lot. :(

36th Metro Manila Film Festival...

Since Tita Achie is here, we're lucky to have watched four out of the eight entries. On the morning of Christmas, we went to MOA. And I was like O_O because MOA is sooo jam-packed! Heck, I can't move without bumping people! O_O Anyway, we watched Si Agimat at Si Enteng Kabisote. It's blockbuster! It was a nice movie! Awesoooome! :D Then after that, we had our dinner. We decided to go home since watching another movie in MOA would keep us forever in line. Then after resting for like 20 minutes, we went to SM Sucat to watch another movie. Unfortunately, there's no Ang Tanging Ina Niyo (Last na 'to) so we watched Shake Rattle and Roll 12. Oh Betcha by Golly Wow! All I was able to do was cover my eyes. Mygeddd! When it's Carla Abellana's part, I didn't finish it. It's gruesome and morbid and gross. I went out of the cinema and called Kyle instead.

The next day, we went to SM Southmall to watch Ang Tanging Ina Niyo (Last na 'to) and Super Inday. The former is hilarious but it made me cry. :') Super Inday is great as well. Laughtrip. :D

I love watching those movies. Awesooome. :D

Lumina Pandit Reaction Paper in Analytical Chemistry (whutt?). When I starting my paper, I was expecting to just have one page but ended up having 3 pages. Woah! I started doing it aorund 11pm and finished it around 2.30. It's nice to be a nocturnal creature which means my mind's working more during the night resulting to an overwhelming reaction paper which made me reread it all over again to make sure it is really my work. Hahaha!

Picnic sa Luneta.

Had the most wonderful picnic with my HS barkada --Judy, King, Rhoy, Caren, Louise + Dave + Rica. UNO!!!! Then 1,2,3!!! Uh-oh. Dave and Rica had to go to their respective events so the six of us decided to have a break. Then chitchat. Then nature's calling. Then played another wholesome game! :)))) Then wander around Luneta and Quirino Grandstand before calling it a day! FUN! :D :D

Bonding with family.

I enjoy this break because it allowed me to spend the days and nights with my family. We're laughing loudly, eating a lot, and having the time of our lives. We spend the Christmas Eve at the Manalo's residence. Then went to MOA to watch MMFF entries that we like. The days are really merry plus the fact that Tita Achie is here with us to celebrate the holidays. So Tita Gina usually go here in our house. It's nice to see my family so happy and so joyful and so contented. Palong-palo sa kasiyahan!

Lastly, Kyle.

What's with Kyle? No, maybe the better question is, who is Kyle? Kyle is the one who made my Christmas break more interesting, added spice to the celebration, and warms me during the cold nights. Though we're apart, we celebrated the season together. Oxymoron? Yes, we are not together physically but the mere fact we have one heart that has one love for each other makes us together. Current status? In love. :)

Ciao!

Berso sa Metro

Dahil natuwa ako sa pagbabasa ng mga tula sa LRT2, eto ang mga tumatak sa akin:

Al perderte yo a ti, tú y yo hemos perdido:

Nang mawala ka sa akin, ikaw at ako’y nawalan:

yo, porque tú eras lo que yo más amaba;

Ako dahil ikaw ang minahal ko nang lubusan
y tú, porque yo era el que te amaba más.

At ikaw dahil ako ang sa iyo’y lubusang nagmahal.
Pero de nosotros dos tú pierdes más que yo:

Ngunit sa dalawa ay ikaw ang higit na nawalan:
porque yo podré amar a otras como te amaba a ti,

Dahil pwede kong mahalin ang iba tulad nang pagmamahal ko sa iyo,

pero a ti no te amarán como te amaba yo.

Ngunit ika’y ‘di mamahalin tulad nang kung paano kita minahal.

Eto pa:

cuando mis pasos van

Kapag ako ay umalis

cuando vuelven mis pasos

Kapag ako ay bumalik

niegame el pan, el aire,

ipagkait mo na sa akin ang tinapay, ang hangin,

la luz, la primavera,

ang liwanag at ang tagsibol

pero tu risa nunca

Huwag lamang ang iyong ngiti

porque me morira

Dahil ito'y aking ikasasawi.

Going to make my own Masterpiece

Writing.

Poetry.

Now that I have Philippine Literature as one of my minor subjects, I have realized that I should not stop writing poems. My poems may not be popular but they're the illustration of what I feel, of what I think.

Masaya talaga ang sumulat ng tula. Ito ang aking paraan upang ilabas at ipakita ang aking nararamdaman.

I have been writing poem since I was in high school but it was only in my first year college that I got to realize that I have thing for poetry. Vacation of 2010, I was able to write more that 15 poems in a month! That was a lot! It overwhelmed me. So I decided to compile all my poems and make my own book of poems. I have it titled 'Guilty Pleasure'. I showed it to my mentor, Ma'am Castro, and she was glad of what I had accomplished. She had only few corrections, most of which were typographical errors.

I grow when I write. It transforms me from an ordinary person into an extraordinary one. It seems that this extraordinariness of mine is being transferred into my works. I feel complete and satisfied whenever I finished writing my poems.

Oh, not only I write poems but also short stories.

I know that someday my time will come that my work will be recognized. In God's will and perfect time. :)

Eh babae ako.

Bakit ba ako nagbablog ngayon?

Actually, hindi ko alam iyon dahilan. Marami lang atang bumabagabag sa utak ko. Hindi ko talaga alam.

Siguro ganito un, ako iyon taong ayaw pinaghihintay ng texts or tawag. Eh minsan ang tagal niyang magreply. Kaya nakakailang texts ako. Valid naman iyon reasons niya for his late replies. Tapos kapag umaga na, ako iyon usually unang naggu-good morning. Natural ako iyon maaga ang pasok, siya tulog pa kasi panghapon class niya. So okay lang din iyon. Pero minsan kapag Saturday, may practice siya kaya hindi siya nakakapagtext. Eh minsan hindi na siya nagtetext pag tapos na iyon practice niya at kapag nakauwi na siya. Katulad kagabi. Nakaka-worry lang. Nakakatampo din. Kanina, I was expecting na magu-good morning siya pero wala pa rin texts. Nakakatampo lang din ulit. Alam ko namang busy siya sa church activities niya. Pero ewan.

Eh babae kasi ako. So natural lang siguro na hanapin ko iyong paglalambing niya. Not that he's not sweet pero ewan. Masamang mag-expect pero I repeat, babae ako. Natural na may mga bagay ako na gusto kong gawin niya for me (kung ano ang mga iyon, that's for him to find out). Not that I'm demanding pero ewan.

Ang gulo ko.

Hindi na pala ako unli. Hindi muna siguro ako magloload.

Ciao!